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Feb. 15th, 2020 05:07 pmThings have been busy, but I've also been napping constantly. A trip to the doctor's and several tests later we have an action plan to see if we can fix some of that.
Meanwhile I continue to try to find ways to get things done with limited motivation (other than the voice in my head saying I suck) that don't overwhelm. So far one of the biggest things that has helped is to break things down into super small chunks. The dining table, for example, is almost always a catchall for stuff I just don't feel like putting away, or thattake more than one step to put away. It's just so conveniently located, and has lots of room. Putting "empty dining table" on my to do list just gets it forwarded through my bullet journal for weeks. BUt I've been trying "pick up x things from dining table" where x is 2-5 depending on how good a day it is. That doesn't always mean I make progress; sometimes things pile up faster than I pick up, but it is a more helpful to do list item than "all the things!".
I've been trying the same thing with the floor, and utility room, bedroom surfaces, etc. All the hot spots.
So far the hardest spot to make progress is the guest room, which at this point is the opposite of welcoming. I"m well aware than having everything under the sun in there piling up is both a bad habit for a recovering hoarder, it's a slow slide, but also is sending the wrong message about how eager I am to have visitors.
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The attempt to put into practice a breeding zone to raise food for the two baby snakes is proving far more complex than it should. Turns out that neither Petco nor PetSmart carry female anything any more. Pet Supplies Plus does, but they are small feeder mice, mixed in together in the bin. Only one person there can reliably sex mice. Also,since they are straight up feeder mice, they aren't the healthiest. I brought home several females and just lost one today while they were in quarantine. I believe it was a respiratory infection, based on the sound of her breathing before we lost her, so I'm very concerned we'll lose the other two as well. All I hope right now is that if that does happen, our attempts to quarantine them from our little boy mouse, Tribble, and from the ratto girls have been successful and it won't spread beyond their tank.
She was too big to feed our baby snake, and too small to feed a large one...so I gave her to the chickens after she passed. At least she wasn't wasted, but it was still sad and now I'm going to be nervous about the others for weeks.
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I'm behind on tracking mymoney and so things keep being a mess, so that's frustrating too. I've also been binge eating,a nd failing to get any real exercise, so I'm steadily gaining weight. Most in my belly, which makes tying shoes etc an interesting exercise in discomfort and an inability to breathe.
It feels, lately, as if for every tiny step forward I take three giant steps back and it's frustrating.
Meanwhile I continue to try to find ways to get things done with limited motivation (other than the voice in my head saying I suck) that don't overwhelm. So far one of the biggest things that has helped is to break things down into super small chunks. The dining table, for example, is almost always a catchall for stuff I just don't feel like putting away, or thattake more than one step to put away. It's just so conveniently located, and has lots of room. Putting "empty dining table" on my to do list just gets it forwarded through my bullet journal for weeks. BUt I've been trying "pick up x things from dining table" where x is 2-5 depending on how good a day it is. That doesn't always mean I make progress; sometimes things pile up faster than I pick up, but it is a more helpful to do list item than "all the things!".
I've been trying the same thing with the floor, and utility room, bedroom surfaces, etc. All the hot spots.
So far the hardest spot to make progress is the guest room, which at this point is the opposite of welcoming. I"m well aware than having everything under the sun in there piling up is both a bad habit for a recovering hoarder, it's a slow slide, but also is sending the wrong message about how eager I am to have visitors.
…..
The attempt to put into practice a breeding zone to raise food for the two baby snakes is proving far more complex than it should. Turns out that neither Petco nor PetSmart carry female anything any more. Pet Supplies Plus does, but they are small feeder mice, mixed in together in the bin. Only one person there can reliably sex mice. Also,since they are straight up feeder mice, they aren't the healthiest. I brought home several females and just lost one today while they were in quarantine. I believe it was a respiratory infection, based on the sound of her breathing before we lost her, so I'm very concerned we'll lose the other two as well. All I hope right now is that if that does happen, our attempts to quarantine them from our little boy mouse, Tribble, and from the ratto girls have been successful and it won't spread beyond their tank.
She was too big to feed our baby snake, and too small to feed a large one...so I gave her to the chickens after she passed. At least she wasn't wasted, but it was still sad and now I'm going to be nervous about the others for weeks.
…..
I'm behind on tracking mymoney and so things keep being a mess, so that's frustrating too. I've also been binge eating,a nd failing to get any real exercise, so I'm steadily gaining weight. Most in my belly, which makes tying shoes etc an interesting exercise in discomfort and an inability to breathe.
It feels, lately, as if for every tiny step forward I take three giant steps back and it's frustrating.
